Trust

One of the greatest challenges I have faced in the last several years is trust. Trusting my decisions. Trusting the process. Trusting the Universe will deliver exactly what I need when I need it. Especially on the days when what is showing up seems as far away from what that is as could be.

When I was younger I put my trust in others, whether it was in people, my parents, my friends, the men I loved or the school system that I was taught in and later in the organizations I worked for. It took me years of living and learning to understand that who I had to trust the most was me. My instincts, my determination, my choices.

Still I admit to having days when I have no trust whatsover in me and when I wonder just  what the #*/?** am I doing. Yesterday was one of those days.

I was still feeling pretty disjointed and disgruntled with me when I awoke at 5:30AM this morning. In an aimless moment, a big cup of coffee in hand and a big desire to accomplish something I sat at my computer and decided to go through the sundry newsletters that fill my email inboxes.

There was this one from The Domino Project with the heading : Trust Yourself(#Trust 30) Writing Challenge.

I’ve signed up. I downloaded this new edition of Ralph Waldo Emerson’s  Self Reliance from Amazon.  I will be blogging, tweeting, and posting on Facebook my reflections over the next month. Yes I am a day late in starting, May 31 being the official kick off. But I trust there is perfection in that.